When I typed up the issues from this week's bad week, I forgot to mention that because my schedule is so hectic I made a very hard decision to leave my creative team position with Chirpi. I knew I couldn't give away more of myself right now, there just isn't much more to give. I also knew that my committment to her wasn't being fulfilled. I wasn't helping her business. I wasn't not scrapbooking on purpose, it's just something that gets pushed to the side when I am under way too much stress and pressure. I try for mindless, easy to complete projects and scrapbooking takes way too much time and thought.
I'm really sad to have to let my creative team position go, but I'm also finding that I truly don't like posting to online galleries too much anymore either. People only comment on layouts if you comment on theirs, or if you have a "big name" in the industry anymore it seems.
I do know that if you're looking for a great digital, creative team that Chirpi is looking for a few new Chirpi Chicks. You can check it out here on her blog!
Sunday, October 26, 2008
One BAD week
I know this blog has been full of downers lately. I think it feels that is a lot of how my life feels. About a week and a half ago I posted about my parents' divorce and my son being out of control. Well that went from bad to worse and I had lots to deal with last week. In a nutshell, Brian went with my dad for a week. We've called for a review of his IEP, and Brian knows that if things don't change, there will be a change in his permenant placement at both school and home.
He came home last night after several long conversations. Things are far from perfect, but he's at least a bit more respectful. Also, last week, he turned in all homework assignments.
We are taking things around here a day at a time.
While we were dealing with those issues, Don was in the middle of mid-terms, and we had our family birthday gathering. I am so behind with school. I know a lot of it has to do with the fact that I'm dealing with behavior issues with about 5 different students and I feel I'm dealing more with that than I'm teaching. When I came back from a couple of days off from dealing with family issues, I had to deal with new behavior issues. It's just never ending. Now I read in an email that I have to be observed by the university too.
So for as bad as last week was, there are things I need to deal with this week that are also going to be difficult. It is the end of the quarter and report cards need to be done. A week from Tuesday is parent-teacher conferences and that is dealing with many other issues to be dealt with. This has been just one difficult start of the year. I'll be glad for a few days off at Thanksgiving, and 2 weeks off at Christmas.
I just want to sit and do mindless things like watching tv, playing games online, knitting and crafting, and petting the dogs. I know it is because I've got so much going on, it's an escape from the problems.
So I keep going, and going, and going. It sounds like the Energizer Bunny but I don't feel like I have that kind of energy.
So I'm hoping for a bit of an easier week. If you can see it in your heart, please say a prayer for our family.
He came home last night after several long conversations. Things are far from perfect, but he's at least a bit more respectful. Also, last week, he turned in all homework assignments.
We are taking things around here a day at a time.
While we were dealing with those issues, Don was in the middle of mid-terms, and we had our family birthday gathering. I am so behind with school. I know a lot of it has to do with the fact that I'm dealing with behavior issues with about 5 different students and I feel I'm dealing more with that than I'm teaching. When I came back from a couple of days off from dealing with family issues, I had to deal with new behavior issues. It's just never ending. Now I read in an email that I have to be observed by the university too.
So for as bad as last week was, there are things I need to deal with this week that are also going to be difficult. It is the end of the quarter and report cards need to be done. A week from Tuesday is parent-teacher conferences and that is dealing with many other issues to be dealt with. This has been just one difficult start of the year. I'll be glad for a few days off at Thanksgiving, and 2 weeks off at Christmas.
I just want to sit and do mindless things like watching tv, playing games online, knitting and crafting, and petting the dogs. I know it is because I've got so much going on, it's an escape from the problems.
So I keep going, and going, and going. It sounds like the Energizer Bunny but I don't feel like I have that kind of energy.
So I'm hoping for a bit of an easier week. If you can see it in your heart, please say a prayer for our family.
Monday, October 13, 2008
Columbus Day, Hubby's Birthday, Divorce, and child out of control
As you can see from my title, many important issues have been happening. Thankfully today is Columbus Day and it's an extra day off for me. I've been a bit productive this weekend. I've got my candy corn hat, that Don wanted, half way done. I've gotten huge dust bunnies up and out. I have to clarify that with two black cocker spaniels, the volume of shedded hair is tremendous. I have black dust bunnies, or tumbleweeds as we call them all over. I can sweep or swiffer daily and they reappear within minutes. It's become a family joke that there is enough hair shedded for 3 dogs and we tease the dogs that they've invited their friend "Hairy" over for the day and he's left the black, hairy balls. I've also been doing laundry and and catching up on college class stuff. Tomorrow the students come for a 15 minute conference.
Tomorrow is also my hubby's 43rd birthday. He is just coming into the prime of his life but he hates birthdays. I'll probably pick up a pumpkin pie or cheesecake tomorrow after class and surprise him when he gets home from class himself. The candy corn hat is also a present for him. He saw the pattern and hinted he'd like to have one.
Tomorrow is also the day my parents finally go to court and officially get divorced. The splitting of assets took forever. They also stayed married until they both could get onto social security and then the medicare issue. So basically their divorce has been in the works for almost 3 and a half years. This has been a really rotten time for family get togethers. I almost completely dread family gatherings anymore and now I can finally say my parents are divorced. I wonder if this means that my dad's girlfriend will be coming to the parties now? She had nothing to do with the divorce and it is a long story that is finally coming to an end, but it is going to be odd to have my mom, dad, and his girlfriend all at the same place.
The last part of my title has to do with my youngest son. He's way out of control and has lack of respect for either his father or I. He left last night after he was an hour late for his time to be home and then came home an hour after the town's curfew. We see his therapist this week, but we are certainly looking towards alternative schooling. I'm ready to beat him with a frying pan and give up my parental rights to him, but I can't give up on him. It's unfortunate that a really smart kid is completely failing 5 classes in school and doesn't care about it. I think I'm just going to stick by the homework requirements we've set and if he chooses to fail then he'll have to suffer the consequences. I'm getting really tired of always being the "bad mom" for caring and being his advocate when he doesn't care about his own success.
Well enough of my downer blog post, but just getting some of it off my chest is my own form of therapy. I hope you all enjoy your Columbus Day and have a super week. I'll be busy and doubt I'll be back again this week.
Hey, thanks for stopping by.
Tomorrow is also my hubby's 43rd birthday. He is just coming into the prime of his life but he hates birthdays. I'll probably pick up a pumpkin pie or cheesecake tomorrow after class and surprise him when he gets home from class himself. The candy corn hat is also a present for him. He saw the pattern and hinted he'd like to have one.
Tomorrow is also the day my parents finally go to court and officially get divorced. The splitting of assets took forever. They also stayed married until they both could get onto social security and then the medicare issue. So basically their divorce has been in the works for almost 3 and a half years. This has been a really rotten time for family get togethers. I almost completely dread family gatherings anymore and now I can finally say my parents are divorced. I wonder if this means that my dad's girlfriend will be coming to the parties now? She had nothing to do with the divorce and it is a long story that is finally coming to an end, but it is going to be odd to have my mom, dad, and his girlfriend all at the same place.
The last part of my title has to do with my youngest son. He's way out of control and has lack of respect for either his father or I. He left last night after he was an hour late for his time to be home and then came home an hour after the town's curfew. We see his therapist this week, but we are certainly looking towards alternative schooling. I'm ready to beat him with a frying pan and give up my parental rights to him, but I can't give up on him. It's unfortunate that a really smart kid is completely failing 5 classes in school and doesn't care about it. I think I'm just going to stick by the homework requirements we've set and if he chooses to fail then he'll have to suffer the consequences. I'm getting really tired of always being the "bad mom" for caring and being his advocate when he doesn't care about his own success.
Well enough of my downer blog post, but just getting some of it off my chest is my own form of therapy. I hope you all enjoy your Columbus Day and have a super week. I'll be busy and doubt I'll be back again this week.
Hey, thanks for stopping by.
Sunday, October 05, 2008
Another week has passed
already! During the week the week seems to go by so slowly. On the weekend, it seems to just fly by. Why couldn't they make weekends 4 days long and the work week 3 days long? I think my way would be much more fun and relaxing.
I've got about 3 different projects I need to get finished before the end of the month. I still have apples to deal with.
The major problem with Brian has only seemed to escalate. CALGON take me away!
I've got papers to grade. I also have tests and assignments to post for the college students. I just got the call Friday night that I was asked to teach another class next semester. Just a week and a half ago, I was told 5 of us were not going to teach due to class needs. Well I guess things changed and they need another class.
The weather here has been cool. There have been problems with our cable, thankfully not the internet. I've turned on the heat. Some mornings it's been in the 40's.
Ok, laundry almost done, no idea what's for dinner. Yikes again, the weekend's way to short!
I've got about 3 different projects I need to get finished before the end of the month. I still have apples to deal with.
The major problem with Brian has only seemed to escalate. CALGON take me away!
I've got papers to grade. I also have tests and assignments to post for the college students. I just got the call Friday night that I was asked to teach another class next semester. Just a week and a half ago, I was told 5 of us were not going to teach due to class needs. Well I guess things changed and they need another class.
The weather here has been cool. There have been problems with our cable, thankfully not the internet. I've turned on the heat. Some mornings it's been in the 40's.
Ok, laundry almost done, no idea what's for dinner. Yikes again, the weekend's way to short!
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